Day 4

Ganbarimasu. sat in pain cross-legged. Made it through the 30 minute session. after thinking, that's not the point. will be comfortable from now on

some girl was crying - why? no one is talking. I thought 2 people had left - i think its been 10 and I head another one say her goodbyes today. I will not give up, it is difficult but I am staying!

I am keeping journal entries, emails in my head for day 11 but I need to focus more on now...
Having said that for the future daily life, if I live until then, I will meditate everyday including the weekend, cut down on TV and go to more than just kadampa class - keeping it as my main practice. If I don't die today.